Liftoff-
7 pm today.
Was caught. Parent said I was "high", was offended. Angry. I sat down and did nothing. I knew I had done ill. I went to my room without diner, and laid down.
Woke up around 8:11
got up, mum had kept some of meal i prepared in the microwave.. I ate as much as I could, but left the rest.
I didn't want her to feel like I was being cold to her by refusing to eat. It was good food. The pork chops were delicious, the beans, the rice, crisp and good.Good food. Cold. Warmed up, not the same as fresh. What what is?
I decided enough.
This is controlling me. This i not mediical use, this is using a drug to get a recreational high thgifg IS THE MOMENT wTHREIS is where a man faulters and falls.. using drgs recreationall... altering my mindscale.sell that;s a fantast sdsantioj'weitrt;s need imagination andexoeriencethey must feek in their skin the very things they ti ine dat descrjb////////////////////////////////////b'''
This is what has happened. when I close my eyes and relax, the medicine does its work. Outside of it, it's a mild narcotic. And I has a hold on me.
and I will not allow it.
I will destroy this hold. I will destroy IT. It has drowned my mind. Now I will drown it down the tunnels it solovingly recreates.
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